Getting back on track...

SO did you think I dropped off the face of the earth? Did I disappear into thin air? Nope, I am still here. Been busy with life...Girl Scout's nuts & candy sales, Wednesday night children's program at church, Fall Festival at the school. And if that isn't enough add in a weekend trip "home" to South Carolina, a weekend camping trip, and a Fall Teacher Retreat for work and well it spells BUSY. Unfortunately, it also spells defeat! Bummer, but it happens. I have been quiet here on the blog because I was off track and I wasn't ready to confess to you all. But now it is time to pull myself out of the big rut I have gotten myself into and get back on track! You did catch that didn't you....I put myself into this rut and I am allowing myself to wallow in it day in and day out. God has still been knocking on my shoulder saying, "that is not what you should be eating" or "don't you think you should get out and walk" or "how is that gonna make you feel in a few hours". I have willingly chosen to not listen and follow. I simply have failed! Failed not only myself but more importantly GOD. Wallowing in the pit of whatever you want to call it is NOT what God wants for me... to be honest it is NOT what I want for me. I just have been struggling to get past the excuses. But today I am saying NO MORE! No more excuses...I will regain focus when I wake in the morning. I will focus on my goals and motivation. I will get back on my track to a healthier me. The first step is to make that dreaded well not really dreaded phone call to schedule that February doctor's appointment. You know the doctor's appointment where I hope to be at my goal weight. I know scheduling the appointment will get me motivated to work hard and stick to it. I can do this.....with God behind me pushing and shoving and sometimes screaming at me I know I can do this.... I just have to kick you know who that has been sitting on my shoulder helping rationalize those excuses to the curb. Do I have a plan for getting back on the right path? Well, right after I pick my self up by my shoestrings. I will start with a smart healthy breakfast and then since it is calling for 100% rain tomorrow I will make friends with the treadmill right after the kiddos are off on the bus to school. I would much rather get outside and walk but looks like it will be too wet and a bit cold tomorrow for that but mark my words I will walk on that darn treadmill. I will! I will! I will! After that I will keep my eye on the prize...my goal...a healthier me and dig my heals into making wise healthy choices for the rest of the day. Although it may not make my household happy tomorrow will be Meatless Monday. Oh the horror of homemade creamy vegetable soup and salad for dinner. Okay, I will throw in some whole wheat rolls for good measure. If and when I try to make excuses tomorrow I will politely remind myself how absolutely horrible I have felt the past few weeks. Now mind you I have not been that bad but I haven't been that good either. My walking has been inconsistent and my eating has slipped a bit. But I am tired of the sluggish feeling, the tired feeling, and just feeling yucky. I am ready to feel better and all it will take is getting my diet and walking back on track. Enough said. I have another reason to get on track. What is it you say? The Daniel Plan! The plan is to dedicate 2015 to God. The Daniel Plan will be the first step in this journey. I will be going on this Daniel Plan journey with several ladies from church. I'm ready or at least I am getting ready. I have been studying the book. Reading, highlighting, and absorbing all the book has to say to me...to teach me...to touch me. This will be not only a physical journey but a spiritual one and a mental one too. Where is God going to lead me in 2015? What does he have in store for little 'ole me? I guess we will find out. So, I am preparing. I am cleaning out the pantry, researching recipes, experimenting with some new veggies, and most importantly I am praying, praying, and praying some more! I am convinced this is the right next step for me. It leaves me at times terrified at some of the changes I will need to make but I am also extremely EXCITED! So I ask that you please pray for me and these ladies as we step out in faith on this journey come January. Well, It is getting late and my bed is calling! Tomorrow is the BIG day to reclaim my journey. But before I go I felt I needed to share my failure with you so you can see everyone makes mistakes. Even the most motivated people slip up. We are all human. We all falter. We all have the choice. Do we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and take the next step in the right direction to meet our goals? YES, that is exactly what I will do right after I get a good night's sleep. I will dust myself off and step out in faith in the right direction. The direction of being a healthier me! Until next time......